it's official! my artist block has returned *sigh*. It is my little frenemy that returns every semester at any random time whenever i have way to much stuff on me mind. Lol the comical thing about it is i see it as my "fun" as seen in the Dave & Buster's commercials. A tiny, rabid, squealing me constantly pushing my mind full of bad memories, emotions, and other things. I know emotions are good whenever doing artwork, but the emotions i'm feeling i cannot channel into the work i'm doing. My graphic design studio skills class has me working on a book cover for Dr. James F. Drane on bioethics. "Finding Relief from Suffering & Depression--- The Role of Understanding & Faith" to be exact is the book we are working on, seeing as i have luckily never found myself in a depressed or suffering state, i am having a hard time evoking the emotions i want to in the design. My family lost my grandfather last spring and ever since then our family has been nothing what it used to be. My grandmother & grandfather were inseparable, and so old fashioned. He would hold doors open for her, carry an umbrella for her while it was raining, pull out chairs, and basically a perfect role model for chivalry. My grandmother has turned to alcohol for her broken heart. God, it is such a daunting feeling knowing that I'm away at school while all hell is breaking loose at home, i feel like I'm not doing my part for the family.
BUT, other than my family problems there is one other thing bothering me. Over the course of a few months i have collected 20 bettas and they have been my hobby/ life for that whole time being. Looking at them now, i feel like they are unhappy with their living quarters. 50% of people online say bowls are ideal for bettas as they are very territorial and it gives them less territory to worry about. And the other 50% say that you are a fish killer if you keep your betta in anything less than 1/2 gallon of water. And as much as i love my bettas i would rather give them away than kill them with my own two hands. *sigh*


OK, sorry i'm done crying, suck it up Josh... (>.<