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About Me Member Art Student Josh780918/Male/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 3 Years
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Stressed :[

Sat Oct 3, 2009, 7:58 PM
it's official! my artist block has returned *sigh*. It is my little frenemy that returns every semester at any random time whenever i have way to much stuff on me mind. Lol the comical thing about it is i see it as my "fun" as seen in the Dave & Buster's commercials. A tiny, rabid, squealing me constantly pushing my mind full of bad memories, emotions, and other things. I know emotions are good whenever doing artwork, but the emotions i'm feeling i cannot channel into the work i'm doing. My graphic design studio skills class has me working on a book cover for Dr. James F. Drane on bioethics. "Finding Relief from Suffering & Depression--- The Role of Understanding & Faith" to be exact is the book we are working on, seeing as i have luckily never found myself in a depressed or suffering state, i am having a hard time evoking the emotions i want to in the design. My family lost my grandfather last spring and ever since then our family has been nothing what it used to be. My grandmother & grandfather were inseparable, and so old fashioned. He would hold doors open for her, carry an umbrella for her while it was raining, pull out chairs, and basically a perfect role model for chivalry. My grandmother has turned to alcohol for her broken heart. God, it is such a daunting feeling knowing that I'm away at school while all hell is breaking loose at home, i feel like I'm not doing my part for the family.
BUT, other than my family problems there is one other thing bothering me. Over the course of a few months i have collected 20 bettas and they have been my hobby/ life for that whole time being. Looking at them now, i feel like they are unhappy with their living quarters. 50% of people online say bowls are ideal for bettas as they are very territorial and it gives them less territory to worry about. And the other 50% say that you are a fish killer if you keep your betta in anything less than 1/2 gallon of water. And as much as i love my bettas i would rather give them away than kill them with my own two hands. *sigh*


OK, sorry i'm done crying, suck it up Josh... (>.<;)

  • Mood: Gloomy
  • Listening to: Let It Be

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  • Current Residence: Pennslyvania
  • Interests: Graphic Design, Drawing, 2D, Photography
  • Favourite movie: 300, Resident Evils', Splash
  • Favourite band or musician: Depends on Mood
  • Favourite genre of music: Rap, Punk, Pop, Rock, Classic, Country
  • Favourite artist: Elizabeth Murray
  • Favourite poet or writer: Margolo
  • Operating System: Macbook Pro, Leopard
  • MP3 player of choice: my iPods
  • Favourite game: World of Warcraft
  • Favourite gaming platform: Ps2, PsP, DS, Xbox 360, Ps3, Wii, Mac
  • Favourite cartoon character: Katarra
  • Personal Quote: "Smoke another one..."
  • Tools of the Trade: sketch book, pencil, eraser, camera, computer & drawing pad

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:iconbarefeetinwetgrass:
wow... you have a great collection of bettas! thank you for the comment on my Calla... I had a great summer shooting flowers! I certainly hope you're going for graphic design... you are very talented!
:iconjosh7809:
that picture was absolutely breathtaking! i can imagine seeing that on display with the best :)

thank you for the compliment on my bettas :D they are my pride and joy haha

& yes i am going for graphic design! i'm glad you could tell :D :D

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:icondarkmoon17:
Thank-you so much for the watch and favs!! :D

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:iconwolfhoax:
Thanks for the fav! :D

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:iconangelic-sakuras:
Hi! Thank you very much for the fave!! :D

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:iconeoweniel:
Thank you for the :+fav: on my mermaid ^_^

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:iconchellebent:
sorry i didn't reply sooner but i'm rapt to be a fav with bluekhan
:iconjianre-m:
Thank you so much for the fav! ^_^

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